re: "At this moment I feel no love for you at all. I never thought that would ever happen, but it has."

Kind a sucks when a job doesn’t go well, but it will get done and you will feel so much better when it is done and the nightmare is over.
Just take away from it whatever you can so that you can apply what you learned to the next nightmare. It’s just another school lesson,
(the idea is to pay less for your schooling next time.)

Good Luck, looking forward to seeing your nice work